The other day I was struggling with a reality I did not want to face in a relational situation. One reality of life is the uncontrollable direction of relationships and one aspect of walking in healthy relationships is allowing freedom despite our blaring feelings that absolutely want to evade the space of grace. Ironically, that day I felt like doors were being shut on my heart, the Lord had ironically highlighted the word “Doors”.
I was not sure how to process that, so I did a little study. Door in my language is darwaza, spelled in Punjabi, ਦਰਵਾਜ਼ੇ, which originates from the urdu word Darwaja “دروازہ” . I am not a linguist; just a lover of languages, but I digress.
Door has a connotation of boundaries as well as direction. The use of gates and doors seem to be used interchangeably within scripture. Interesting to highlight that Jesus called himself the door, yet his way was a “narrow gate”. There are plenty of religions in the world, but few seem to find the treasures of the narrow path of grace.
I am the Door; whoever enters through me will be saved. [a] They will come in and go out, and find pasture. -John 10:9
Why, then, is it so hard to discover grace despite the radiance of a treasure that is priceless and holds unlimited value? Is it, perhaps, we ourselves need to open the numerous self-protective gates upon our hearts to let the King of Glory, the author of love, come in? May it also be that our spirit knows that once we allow this collision of our hearts with grace, we will likely be provoked to be transformed into a new reality that seems alluring yet perplexing?
The thought of true intimacy through experiential grace may be catastrophically challenging yet the undeniable allure to the possibility of the fullness of intimacy is the hidden door to reawaken connection.
“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.” – Matthew 7:7-8
Perhaps allowing grace to enter the doors of our hearts will finally allow us to function with a wholeness that will transform our environments, our relationships and ultimately change the world in a majestically glorious cascade.
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